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Summer is basically half over.
I've gotten basically nothing done.
I feel weak.
I feel like a failure.
I hate people.
My tuba is terribly lonely.
My music is terribly lonely.
I've barely accomplished anything musically.
I hate fighting.
I love falling asleep on the beach with two of my best friends.
I hate that it is ruined again by a fight with someone else.
Why do I feel empty?
I feel tired.
Work is work.
I am constanly working.
Eric is fun at work.
He makes me smile.
I need to smile more.
I have to smile more.
I feel worthless.
I know I am not, I try not to feel worthless, but I do.
I feel selfish.
I want to be loved.
I'm going to be a senior.
I want a good year.
I am anxious for it to start.
I am nervous about applying to college.
I am nervous about my vocal auditions.
It's so far away why worry?
I need to practice more.
I don't have time to practice.
I need help.
He won't help.
I hate fighting with him.
It makes me sad.
I am so busy.
All I want is to relax.
Take a day off.
I miss my own bed.
I love Emily and Grace.
Why am I always the "friend"?
Why can't I have a classic romance?
Why do I make stupid mistakes?
I feel as though my trust is broken.
I feel small.
I want to feel infinite again.
I want to play tuba.
I want to sing.
I want to dance.
I want, I want.
So selfish.
I want to help others.
I want someone to look at me and think I'm beautiful.
I want to be a teenager.
I want to go out with my friends.
Blah.
I feel like crap right now.